A New Beginning

So, I finally did it. I finally had the courage to do it. I am free and happy, and I know everything will be alright.

I've been so stressed these past few months about this and now that I've finally decided to let go of it, I feel liberated. Gone are the days of crying myself to sleep and waking up feeling exhausted. Gone are the days of stress-eating and self loathing. I can now sleep soundly at night knowing that tomorrow will no longer be the same. Tomorrow is finally something I can look forward to. After so many years, I now feel like I can go back to my old hobbies and actually enjoy doing them. I feel inspired and positive about everything. I will work hard and give my best so that this opportunity won't go to waste. I am sooo thrilled and nervous, and I know I will be alright. I believe in myself. I believe that I can do this. In times of doubt, I will look at myself in the mirror and tell her that she's everything she will ever need. I'll tell her how brave and capable she is. I'll remind her to look inside her and see and feel what she truly desires. This is what you wanted, self. You can do it. I can do it. I'll be alright.

My Top 5 Favorite Android Apps 2019

I've always loved reading articles about this and watching YouTube Videos about different Android apps that I actually might find useful, so I thought why not write a blog post about my favorite topic? :)

I've been using Android for god knows how long. Say, maybe around 8 to 9 years now? Below is a list of all the apps that I can never live without. Cheret.


1. Twitter

I loooove Twitter! Been on it since 2009 and I don't regret keeping this account (shameless self-promotion lol). Like most people, I use it as an outlet 'cause why not? Don't you ever get this feeling when you want to vent out but don't have anyone to talk to? I know. Being the anti social (how ironic) person that I am, I don't really have a lot of friends and I'm perfectly okay with that. The downside is, they're not always available. I always find myself looking for an outlet of some sort. Be it writing, drawing, singing (forgive me, Lord), or just randomly scrolling through 9gag and Twitter. I like how Twitter is not as toxic as Facebook, albeit still polluted with problematic people (including myself lol). You can follow whoever, whatever and right now it's still not as heavily polluted with ads as with some other social media platforms. I mainly use it to stalk people (cheret) and read news/articles that I find interesting. Mostly about aliens, ufo, science in general, technology, and BTS. Yes, I'm an ARMY. 

2. Amino

I discovered this about a year ago, and my golly I just love this! Amino literally has something for everyone. You like blogging? There's a community of blog enthusiasts here. You like creepy stuff? There's tons of communities here that will suit your taste. Whatever it is that you're interested in, you're most certainly going to find that here in Amino. If you want to be inspired or just want to know more about a certain topic, just look it up in Amino and you'll find what you're looking for. The community is super nice and supportive, too. 

3. Spotify

One does not simply own a smartphone and not have any music streaming app installed. Seriously, I don't know anyone who doesn't listen to music on their phone. I've tried different kinds of music streaming apps like Apple Music, Google Music, Soundcloud, etc., but nothing beats Spotify in terms of functionality, user interface, and music quality (except for Apple music...maybe). I love how I no longer need to download a separate app for podcasts and radio. I love listening to podcasts while driving to and from work. It's not that distracting compared to songs (cause yeah, I'm the best driver in the world) and I am obsessed with Mysterious Universe. It's also a lot more affordable than it's competitors and I've never had any problems with it. 

4. Duolingo

If you want to learn a new language, there's no better app than Duolingo. I used to study Nihongo years ago (self study) because I am very interested in the Japanese culture and I'm obsessed with anime. I want to be able to watch animes without having to read the subtitles. I reached to a point where I can actually understand intermediate level Nihongo , but I lost interest and stopped studying. Now, I want to learn this language again so I downloaded Duolingo. Best decision ever! It's highly effective. All lessons come in form of challenges and it's completely free. According to them, 34 hours of Duolingo is equivalent to a semester of university-level education. Learning another language is definitely a good investment, especially if you want to earn more money as a working individual.

5. Pocket

Last, but not the least is Pocket or previously known as Read It Later. It's an application for managing a reading list of articles from the internet . It allows you to save an article or a web page on its servers for later reading. It saves it in a clean, readable format free from clutters. You can also organize your list by adding tags and changing the font, text color, background, etc. It's also free. 

And there you have it. I have more apps on my phone than I will ever need so I thought I'd write a post about my top 5 apps so I can let go of other apps that I'm no longer using. All of these are also available in iOs and Windows. Gosh, I never really know how to end a blog post. 

Forever matakaw,

Darnae ❤

Same old, same old, but not really.

Wow. Just wow. I never thought I'd find this blog again. How long has it been? Last time I posted something here was ages ago. I was still working for this sorry of a company back then (hahaha no hate tho).

So many things happened over the last couple of years. Life really is a roller coaster. I remember back in college, I was so sure that I will become a surgeon one day,  but nah. Life slapped me in the face like his b*tch and fast forward to 2018 2019, I'm now a working professional in a software company somewhere in Ortigas, far from my forever dream of becoming a doctor. Am I disappointed? Maybe. Maybe not. See, what I learned so far is, life almost always never happen the way you want it to. It's really not like the movies, but I still think it's wonderful...very. I may have not gotten to where I wanted to go, but I am where I should be. It's not always sunshine and rainbows, but I grew so much as a person and learned so many valuable life lessons that I wouldn't trade who and what I am now for anything else. I've met many people, and lost more. I may not always be happy, but I am satisfied.

I can't believe it's already 2019. I mean, how come? I was freaking twenty just yesterday! in just a few weeks, I'll be twenty six. It's so crazy when you think about it. You go from being a pa-sweet teenager to a mid-twenty stressed and oversized adult in a blink of an eye!

I wish I had kept writing here so I can look back at my teenager self and laugh more haha. My golly, aren't I the cringiest person ever?

I don't know what to say anymore. I want this year to be full of positive vibes. This year, I will focus more on myself. I won't be as hard on myself. I will walk more slowly and enjoy the everyday war-like commute. I will eat slower and actually savor the food. I will forgive myself for making mistakes and being angry over the littlest of things, pat my back for working hard, and surviving yet another day without breaking down. I deserve all the happiness in the world. No more self loathing and self pity. Just love. ❤




Forever matakaw,
Darnae