Same old, same old, but not really.

Wow. Just wow. I never thought I'd find this blog again. How long has it been? Last time I posted something here was ages ago. I was still working for this sorry of a company back then (hahaha no hate tho).

So many things happened over the last couple of years. Life really is a roller coaster. I remember back in college, I was so sure that I will become a surgeon one day,  but nah. Life slapped me in the face like his b*tch and fast forward to 2018 2019, I'm now a working professional in a software company somewhere in Ortigas, far from my forever dream of becoming a doctor. Am I disappointed? Maybe. Maybe not. See, what I learned so far is, life almost always never happen the way you want it to. It's really not like the movies, but I still think it's wonderful...very. I may have not gotten to where I wanted to go, but I am where I should be. It's not always sunshine and rainbows, but I grew so much as a person and learned so many valuable life lessons that I wouldn't trade who and what I am now for anything else. I've met many people, and lost more. I may not always be happy, but I am satisfied.

I can't believe it's already 2019. I mean, how come? I was freaking twenty just yesterday! in just a few weeks, I'll be twenty six. It's so crazy when you think about it. You go from being a pa-sweet teenager to a mid-twenty stressed and oversized adult in a blink of an eye!

I wish I had kept writing here so I can look back at my teenager self and laugh more haha. My golly, aren't I the cringiest person ever?

I don't know what to say anymore. I want this year to be full of positive vibes. This year, I will focus more on myself. I won't be as hard on myself. I will walk more slowly and enjoy the everyday war-like commute. I will eat slower and actually savor the food. I will forgive myself for making mistakes and being angry over the littlest of things, pat my back for working hard, and surviving yet another day without breaking down. I deserve all the happiness in the world. No more self loathing and self pity. Just love. ❤




Forever matakaw,
Darnae